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- to everyone waiting for a reply from me

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 7, 2017, 5:12 PM
okay so .... i don't really know why i'm doing this, but i don't think i can keep it in anymore-- i really need to get this out somewhere... 
i've written several polls and tweets about how i've been inactive and terrible with replies lately 
and i have this huge lump of guilt in my stomach that i'm feeling pretty much constantly 

I'M IN THIS KINDA EVIL CIRCLE OK 
when i'm stressed or depressed irl i tend to go on sort of a commission rampage and order tons of stuff, because art + my babies .. it cheers me up and distracts me from my troubles
but then many of the commsisions sometimes end up being finished around the same time, and some of you guys know i tend to write these really long replies with lots of feeling and love yes..? (feels weird saying it like that but haha///) i always like to really really show the artist how much i appreciate their work and all--- BUT it's honestly exhausting for me to write these kinda messages since it's so difficult for me to show my feelings properly, so i spend way too much time and effort writing them HAHA....
it doesn't feel right to me just writing a simple thank you and move on... tho that's definitely what i should be doing because it's a ton better than getting no response at all < < [there's no in between with me i guess pfft]
but yeah
whenever there's more than like 1 or 2 things i need to reply to i end up procrastinating
and then in the meantime even more commissions are finished
and i get more and more stressed and in the end i'm like "well now it's been so long it's embarrassing to even reply at all"
but i still keep buying even more commissions to cope with my stress ?????

iT'S ALL SO IRONIC BECAUSE ALL I REALLY WANTED WAS TO THANK YOU GUYS  PROPERLY FOR YOUR HARD WORK BUT INSTEAD I NOW SEEM LIKE A TERRIBLE PERSON WHO DOESN'T EVEN CARE ENOUGH TO SAY THANK YOU AT ALL
AND I JUST SPEND ALL MY TIME THINKING ABOUT THIS AND FEELING SUPER GUILTY

THIS IS THE MESSIEST JOURNAL I'VE WRITTEN
I AM SORRY OK 
I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT-- 
communicating and showing your feelings .. it's difficult 
just please know that if i commissioned you or something and if i haven't gotten back to you yet, it's dEFINITELY NOT because i wasn't happy with the piece or anything like that!! 
i'm just --
a tiny bit overwhelmed both offline and online ok
and this isn't supposed to be an excuse or anything, just an explanation i guess haha.. 
i'll stop now 
bye bye 

i'm already embarrassed for even posting this hahhhhh

  • Listening to: songs that make me cry
  • Playing: criminal girls 2
  • Eating: pepperoni calzone
  • Drinking: pepsi max

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vanille | cancer/leo cusp | isfj | always bored & lonely

Semi-Hiatus.
I'm not that active here at the moment [tho i am trying to be] and if you want to talk, you could ask for my skype or tweet me instead.
I'm sorry if you've messaged / noted me
and not gotten a reply yet.
I'm also super shy and don't really know how to express my feelings-- which leads to even slower replies.... (´•ω•̥`)

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:icongabster08:
Gabster08 Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
H..hi ;v;
I make small gift for you ,,
Idk if you like this art and his story..so I give separate file with Ruben too ;v;
I-I hope you like it! ^^
So..short description: Maru came on overnight to Ruben. They play, talk about his boyfriends, friends, coffee etc. Maru got drunk and in night he talk with his mother..but his mother is dead. So Ruben had to explain it to him.
sta.sh/21aipex9d6b9?edit=1
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Dapplelight48 Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2017
Thank you so much for the fave!!
Remember to watch me for more art^^
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Juveon Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
such cute characters aa <3 Emoji 27 
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VanilleCream Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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