Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Digital Art / Hobbyist Official Beta Tester overwhelmed ...23/Norway Groups :icongingafans: GingaFans
 
Recent Activity
Deviant for 5 Years
4 Month Core Membership
Statistics 191 Deviations 8,894 Comments 157,968 Pageviews

-






Name of Image

:iconmiyagawa-high:

-



i want to draw like you


:iconnekogirl-san::iconbrabbitwdl::iconpowder-puff::iconmachomilk::iconmilemiru::iconmonnan::iconlilieskies:
:iconbunnilu::iconfleesveon::icontulypi::iconlanahx3::iconpenguinkissus::iconneirre::iconkasusei:

Visitors

:iconkittyrosali: :iconjianrou: :iconalexfrd: :iconbuttbum: :iconwindexter:

Watchers

-




|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|


|
|
|

- to everyone waiting for a reply from me

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 7, 2017, 5:12 PM
okay so .... i don't really know why i'm doing this, but i don't think i can keep it in anymore-- i really need to get this out somewhere... 
i've written several polls and tweets about how i've been inactive and terrible with replies lately 
and i have this huge lump of guilt in my stomach that i'm feeling pretty much constantly 

I'M IN THIS KINDA EVIL CIRCLE OK 
when i'm stressed or depressed irl i tend to go on sort of a commission rampage and order tons of stuff, because art + my babies .. it cheers me up and distracts me from my troubles
but then many of the commsisions sometimes end up being finished around the same time, and some of you guys know i tend to write these really long replies with lots of feeling and love yes..? (feels weird saying it like that but haha///) i always like to really really show the artist how much i appreciate their work and all--- BUT it's honestly exhausting for me to write these kinda messages since it's so difficult for me to show my feelings properly, so i spend way too much time and effort writing them HAHA....
it doesn't feel right to me just writing a simple thank you and move on... tho that's definitely what i should be doing because it's a ton better than getting no response at all < < [there's no in between with me i guess pfft]
but yeah
whenever there's more than like 1 or 2 things i need to reply to i end up procrastinating
and then in the meantime even more commissions are finished
and i get more and more stressed and in the end i'm like "well now it's been so long it's embarrassing to even reply at all"
but i still keep buying even more commissions to cope with my stress ?????

iT'S ALL SO IRONIC BECAUSE ALL I REALLY WANTED WAS TO THANK YOU GUYS  PROPERLY FOR YOUR HARD WORK BUT INSTEAD I NOW SEEM LIKE A TERRIBLE PERSON WHO DOESN'T EVEN CARE ENOUGH TO SAY THANK YOU AT ALL
AND I JUST SPEND ALL MY TIME THINKING ABOUT THIS AND FEELING SUPER GUILTY

THIS IS THE MESSIEST JOURNAL I'VE WRITTEN
I AM SORRY OK 
I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT-- 
communicating and showing your feelings .. it's difficult 
just please know that if i commissioned you or something and if i haven't gotten back to you yet, it's dEFINITELY NOT because i wasn't happy with the piece or anything like that!! 
i'm just --
a tiny bit overwhelmed both offline and online ok
and this isn't supposed to be an excuse or anything, just an explanation i guess haha.. 
i'll stop now 
bye bye 

i'm already embarrassed for even posting this hahhhhh

  • Listening to: songs that make me cry
  • Playing: criminal girls 2
  • Eating: pepperoni calzone
  • Drinking: pepsi max

-





Name of Image
↑ let yuuta sing for you




vanille | cancer/leo cusp | isfj | always bored & lonely

Semi-Hiatus.
I'm not that active here at the moment [tho i am trying to be] and if you want to talk, you could ask for my skype or tweet me instead.
I'm sorry if you've messaged / noted me
and not gotten a reply yet.
I'm also super shy and don't really know how to express my feelings-- which leads to even slower replies.... (´•ω•̥`)

pixel ribbon bullet by puucheiiTwitter | Toyhouse | Raptr | MAL

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:iconkittyrosali:
KittyRosali Featured By Owner 28 minutes ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthdayy!!! <33
Reply
:iconsakura-miki:
Sakura-Miki Featured By Owner 53 minutes ago  Student Digital Artist
Happy Birthday My Love :heart: :iconyurihugplz:
Reply
:iconalexfrd:
AlexFRD Featured By Owner 2 hours ago
Happy Birthday!! :cake::party:
Reply
:iconbakamilk:
bakamilk Featured By Owner 4 hours ago
Happy birthday vanille ♥ 
Reply
:iconcute-little-tea:
Cute-little-tea Featured By Owner 4 hours ago  Student Digital Artist
happy birthday
Reply
Add a Comment: